You see I was at a point in my life that I was broken. I mean the mirror of my life had shattered and there was no way I alone could put all the pieces back together. Believe me, I tried time and time again. I tried this and I tried that to fix things and make them whole again but nothing could fix my brokenness, until one day I decided to try something I hadn’t. I knew something in my life had to change for change to happen. One day I saw a Facebook post about a new church. I’m not sure what exactly attracted me to this post but I told myself okay, go and have an open heart to receive whatever you can. I decided to reach out to this person and ask times of service so I could arrange a time to go, and I did. I went with expectations of a change and boy did I receive change. It wasn’t that night that I decided to give my life to Christ but on my next visit. But in the instant that I walked into this church, I could feel something different in me. You automatically felt the love from all the people. And you see it wasn’t their love that changed me but God’s love in them. These people allowed Jesus to shine through them which allowed me to receive His love. In just two visits, I knew God was mending the pieces to my brokenness. What I couldn’t fix in days, weeks, months, years began to repair when accepting Him into my life. It allowed Him to work all things for good. I genuinely seeked a relationship with Him and by doing so my life wasn’t just passing by me any more. Anxiety, depression, all things of the broken Jessica were gone. I was now a happier person. I woke up knowing I had a purpose because of His love. I know God’s love because I have experienced it when I allowed myself to be open to change in my life.
In the Bible you can see it declares God is love. 1 John 4:8 “ He who does not love does not know God, for God is love.” I’m a mother to a little boy and I’m glad I had my son years after I accepted Christ in my life. I always thought I knew the true meaning of love but I really only knew the concept. I didn’t know how to truly love nor did I know what love really meant, until I allowed Christ to work in me and show me what love is. In knowing God’s love I believe it has helped me to be a better mother to my son. I know through my son God has also showed me just what His love is. As a parent you want the best for your child. You constantly want them to know they are loved. No matter what they do you continue to love them. Looking back this is the love my mom gave me as well. Time and time again she’s loved me through all my situations. No matter what I was going through she showered her love over me. Parents want to see greater things in and for their children and this is exactly what God wants for us. I use to wonder okay God I’m a sinner. I’m not perfect and I make mistakes, how could you still love me? God showed me just as I love my son when he doesn’t listen to me God also loves me and you with our imperfections. You see He knew before we were even born that we weren’t perfect. He knew we would all sin. He knew this and sent His Son Jesus Christ to die the most awful death known so that the debt of our sins could be paid in full because He loved us. And because Jesus loved us He knew His purpose and although He was perfect He died for us, which is the greatest thing that has ever and will ever be done for you and I. I’m grateful God constantly uses different situations and people to show me what His love is. I understand God’s love because through my son he has helped me understand His love. I understand His love because His word tells me about His love.
I thank God for my life because I know how undeserving I am of it yet to Him it is valuable. I ask Him constantly in my prayer time to help me learn to love as He does. This is something I have not yet perfected but I want to continuously work on and I know I need His help. Have you perfected His love? If not, why don’t you daily ask as I do for God to help you love as He does. I’m praying for you all and hope that you encounter and embrace God’s love and in this you allow Him to teach you to love. Let’s ask God for His help daily and learn to love together!